Double Vision

Friday, July 1, 2011

I have to admit. I can be; at times, a little bit of a procrastinator. I can have all the best of intentions and end up looking like a wishy washy girl who does not do what she says she is going to do. I have to say this is one of my least liked qualities. I often find myself making lists of things to get done, people to call, cards to send, meals to make..and on and on. It is actually, come to think of it, hilarious. I mean, how do I expect to become a NON-procrastinator just by making a "list" and laying out a "big plan". I have been really working on focusing on one thing at a time. Beginning with making sure my priorities are straight.
I say all this to start off with the playing field leveled. Because what I am about to say might upset a few people.. but then again, what else is new? :)
Is it just me or is it frustrating to have all these "movements" within our churches? You know, the ones that get us all "hyped up" and then fizzle out with no more mention of it...ever?! How can we as a church get anything done if all we do is make "to do lists" into sermons and then not really follow it up with anything.
I have been so encouraged lately while traveling and meeting such amazing people who are not just saying they are going to change the world for Jesus, they are doing it, living it .. and I did not see any "lists" in thier hands.
I guess what I am trying to conveigh is my own frustration in MY actions and the reflection of these same actions in the church. I don't want to be this way, I don't want my walk to be a pep rally or a "plan" or a "movement" I want it to be a life changed by Jesus Christ so radically that I can not help but LIVE it out and have those around me affected and changed.

ok, rant over.. now off to make a list ;)



  1. It seems like most things that we should be doing, or that are at least worth doing, are the least easy things to get started. I guess, because we recognize the fact that we're not doing them and then find it difficult to put one foot forward and move from our current position. Laziness? Inertia? Human nature? For me, its much easier to allow myself to be captivated by the shiny glittery stuff than it is for me to roll up my sleeves and act...the way I should. Thanks for this post. Well said.

  2. great post... i too am a serious procrastinator and ocd list maker! hahaha! i also find myself discouraged by my own lack of follow through with what the Lord has called me to.... BUT when i was at my most disheartened, i heard His Voice say to me, "if you are faithful and diligent in obedience to Me, I am faithful to complete in you My plans for you." in other words, "yep, you screwed up today but tomorrow is coming and I'm still here."

    knowing that His forgiveness is enough, His grace provides, and He is the God of second chances gave the freedom to forgive myself and put the next foot forward and keep going...... and i continue to pray daily that He will remain faithful to guide me and lead me.....

    it is so wonderful that you are so real. thanks, it's nice to know i'm not the only one who struggles with this! :)