Double Vision

I have to admit. I can be; at times, a little bit of a procrastinator. I can have all the best of intentions and end up looking like a wishy washy girl who does not do what she says she is going to do. I have to say this is one of my least liked qualities. I often find myself making lists of things to get done, people to call, cards to send, meals to make..and on and on. It is actually, come to think of it, hilarious. I mean, how do I expect to become a NON-procrastinator just by making a "list" and laying out a "big plan". I have been really working on focusing on one thing at a time. Beginning with making sure my priorities are straight.
I say all this to start off with the playing field leveled. Because what I am about to say might upset a few people.. but then again, what else is new? :)
Is it just me or is it frustrating to have all these "movements" within our churches? You know, the ones that get us all "hyped up" and then fizzle out with no more mention of it...ever?! How can we as a church get anything done if all we do is make "to do lists" into sermons and then not really follow it up with anything.
I have been so encouraged lately while traveling and meeting such amazing people who are not just saying they are going to change the world for Jesus, they are doing it, living it .. and I did not see any "lists" in thier hands.
I guess what I am trying to conveigh is my own frustration in MY actions and the reflection of these same actions in the church. I don't want to be this way, I don't want my walk to be a pep rally or a "plan" or a "movement" I want it to be a life changed by Jesus Christ so radically that I can not help but LIVE it out and have those around me affected and changed.

ok, rant over.. now off to make a list ;)

heather